Unable to say anything but “Ah-h-h,” getting dirtied and hit by a big man.
I can’t find the words, I don’t understand, your feelings getting tormented.
I don’t know, I don’t want, it’s dirty, I won’t look. My pupils, the color of dusk.
It hurts, I won’t, hope for anything, I won’t bear it, I wish you would die right now.
Oh-h-h, the big man, will, kill you. I know, but, I don’t, see.
That man will get the death penalty, and on that day, we rejoice.
Khaki trousers, a thin film of dirt. Something screams out from inside my chest.
Cramming it in and pretending not to hear. My head is glitching. My head is glitching.
A body? A gas?
It’s like a liquid.
My pupils, the color of dusk.
It hurts, I won’t, hope for anything, I hate it.
I wish you would just die now.
Ahh I had a dream where you just screamed and cried, and now I can’t sleep at all.
I bought a can of soda pop and tried to drink it, but…
Ahh, I’ve had enough.
I’ll go ahead and write my will.
Dark seeping brown, loathsome hair, loving passion, the vanished you. The man will die. Ahh.
For a murderer there’s no worth in living, that’s what they always say.
Even though the country kills too.
They bite their lips indignantly and say, “I can’t forgive a guy who killed someone.”
”Give him the death penalty”
”Give him the death penalty”
”Give him the death penalty”
”Give him the death penalty”
I want to scoop out the inside of my head and eat it like monkey brains.
How much longer till this gets easier?
How much longer will I just grow sadder?
Ahh, it seems the day you die has been set.
So I’ll say it now, I want to die, I want to die, so please, I want to die, kill me!
“Did you say, you want to die, that’s, no good, if you die, then, I’ll die too”
Deep inside my chest, a voice sounds out.
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